when friends make plans in front of you but don’t invite you
Felt the need to talk about this because I honestly feel so happy and lucky to have had it happen to me. I feel like I’m living in a movie. The first guy I ever loved and the only guy I’ve ever TRULY loved came back into my life and is a completely different person now. He is everything he wasn’t when we first dated my sophomore year. Now, Freshman year of college and everything Ive ever wanted with him is happening. I never stopped wanting him and loving him. The best part is that he came back knowing how bad he was to me the first time and all he’s done since admitting that is make up for it. I couldn’t ask for anything more. He hugs and touches me like he misses me and he kisses me like he’s trying to make up for something. Having him back in my life is great…. but having him want me just as much if not more than I’ve always wanted him is a feeling I can’t even explain. Nonstop butterflies and the feeling of never having to worry about anything. He is the only one to make me feel like this…ever.
we joke about procrastination but nothing is worse than the nauseating feeling of having every intention of doing something but physically not being capable of doing it and then feeling like you want to throw up because the deadline is just getting closer and closer.